what to do

i guess im lost. i honestly don't know who i consider friends now. im trying to be optimistic but its hard. she is still in the back of my head. i have horrible timing. i want to be mad at her and hate her for it but i only feel that way because i'm somewhat hurt. idk if we'll ever be together but that's not what my focus is on. on the bright side the other chick i don't have feelings for now. she's honestly just another cute girl that will just be cute and no more than that. i also find that alot of my bestfriends are pissing me off which means it may be time to evaluate my friendship with them and weed out the bad ones.....again. i just really wan to go up their face and say fuck you.