Update on Life

relationship is goin very very well. me and my best friends. still iffy as usual. i already lost about maybe 3. we faded. i'm not gonna work to get it back. I have come to the conclusion that my relationship with my best friends will always be somewhat iffy due to my paranoia. i always think one small thing could change something in a big way. i can't help it. i just cope with it. any help would be greatly appreciated but other than that life is goin alright. i back bloggin so expect more. especially this up coming week. thanksgiving break :)

Relationship

New relationship, new possibilities. she really feels for me and i do her. she is looking for a steady relationship. so am i. please pray this to work especially those who know me best

Repeition

Do you know what sucks???? gettin mad at the same stuff all the time. it's time to move on and drop people. i've got a feeling i will be a couple bestfriends short before the break, but i don't care anymore. im tired of getting angry b/c of things they do. time to move on. i've been negative and angry lately. maybe this can turn that around

what to do

i guess im lost. i honestly don't know who i consider friends now. im trying to be optimistic but its hard. she is still in the back of my head. i have horrible timing. i want to be mad at her and hate her for it but i only feel that way because i'm somewhat hurt. idk if we'll ever be together but that's not what my focus is on. on the bright side the other chick i don't have feelings for now. she's honestly just another cute girl that will just be cute and no more than that. i also find that alot of my bestfriends are pissing me off which means it may be time to evaluate my friendship with them and weed out the bad ones.....again. i just really wan to go up their face and say fuck you.